I intentionally turned off my birthday alerts all across my socials since the past few years. Why? I don't really know...but I'll make sure it's always turned off.
Maybe it could be burdensome knowing that someone might have to wish or gift me something or I might get disappointed if no one remembers when it's clearly stated and i'll feel like i'm forgotten. Maybe the latter, mostly.
I stopped trying to make sense of my folly and today as I was inquiring a birth date from a friend, I observed a similar sentiment- when a person would ask me for my birth date.
Unsurprisingly, I never got an answer out but that small exchange made me felt less strange about the behavior I have around my birthday, like the day itself.
By having no expectation at all = i'll have no disappointments.
This year, John surprised me with a new Apple phone about a week prior to my birthday. I told him specifically throughout the year that I didn't need a phone change but God bless his heart for always wanting to gift me the best.
On the day of my birthday, we were both at the gym, breaking some sweat and I never felt this fit in my life. Only a baby age in the gym world but wow, I never thought I could have the discipline to clock into the gym every weekday!
What they say about gym doing more for your mental health than the physical is true.
So yes, this year, I felt less depressed...largely due to friends from home visiting Korea and I got to celebrate with new friends which I gotten close to the past year.
My tank was continuously filled and I have to admit that I'm needy even more so now.
Happy birthday Jessica.
I hope you'll be able to leverage on all the childish, quirky things you love and make serious money for all the private life you wish to have! hah!
Private beach, private butler, private jet, et cetera.
